So I just found out I am expecting my second child. The emotions running through me are not easy to capture in just one sentence. Trying to establish new beginnings and let go of all of my past has been a very hard thing for me to accomplish. It's actually still a work in progress but since I have God on my side, He gives me the pushes I need on those days where I am somber.
Well for a few weeks now my body kept giving me hints at the possibility of being pregnant but I would very quickly dismiss them and tell myself that AF would arrive any day now. All those cramps and headaches were related to PMS and it was not anything related to being pregnant. Well, telling my body I wasn't pregnany did not work and lo and behold, here comes number 2.
I know for a fact this experience is going to be a positive one and compeletly different than my first pregnancy. The number one reason of this is my relationship with God is at a completely different level and I am much more closer to Him than I was in my past. My walk with God is everything to me. The second reason why this pregnancy is going to be different is because my marriage is in a completely different place than where it was when I first was pregnant. Well, I wasn't married for my first pregnancy so yea.
My husband and I are a testament to God's restoring wonders and power. Had it not been for God, this baby would be non-existent and so would my marriage. But because of our fervent devotion to God and lots and lots of prayer and counseling, our marriage is going wonderfully. Yes we have our rough days but realistically speaking, who doesn't? If you say you don't, then you are a liar.
So, am I happy about this upcoming bundle of joy? Definitely! Can't wait to meet him and greet him with as much love as I can give. My daughter is a bit jealous and I might be needing to hire a child psychologist in the near future, but I will deal with this when the time comes. My little diva will just have to adjust to the changes that are bound to occur.
Till then!
Mommy to be
